Husbands

I came into our marriage with high hopes and full of love. I could see nothing but you and trusted no one but you. Despite family misgivings about our relationship, despite doubts about us staying together, my young age and your immaturity, we built a relationship that has survived a long deployment at the beginning, childbirth, getting out of the military with no job and another child on the way, coming back to your home town, robberies, loss of a child and the birth of another child...But the mistrust we have in our marriage threatens to destroy us. Why do you not trust me. Why do you not trust that I can handle things, to be able to take care of things here? I am not stupid, I am not unable to work, to pay bills and keep the household together..... why do you hide things, why is your AOL account such a big secret? How am I suppose to trust you, to show you love and to be able to support you fully..You act like that you can not trust me to take care of things while you are gone...you act like I am unable to do things...I can not keep doing this, I can not stay in this relationship if I do not feel trust from you or trust you. This is the foundation that a relationship is built upon...where is ours? At what point is enough? I still have that love for you, but that is not enough any more, I need the everything else, the unconditional trust, the affection, not just love and the communication, which we have none...